Still can't pull it off. I wish I knew what her trick was. Finding someone new wasn't the way she stopped loving me; or if it was, then it won't last for them, and that would truly suck. You can't get over someone by finding someone else; all you can do that way is distract yourself from the previous someone, but eventually those feelings resurface and wreck the new thing, leaving you with neither the one you really loved nor the one you tried to build a new flame for.

 

She said she never loved me. For a long time, I thought she was telling herself a story because she feared the feelings she felt.

 

Now I realize she was right. She couldn't treat me the way she did if she loved or cared about me. She couldn't have even pretended to find someone new so quickly if she had ever really given a damn for my heart.